Today was a success.
It started as it always does when I have a typically anxious day planned, being stuck in the bathroom. Yet another physical symptom I have the pleasure of experiencing. I won't say the exact words but I'm sure you can work it out. It is a truly upsetting & embarrassing way to start the day but once I was in the car and on the way, I seemed to calm down.
I especially struggle with meeting new people. I met some people today that I'd only met once before and never really spoken to at all. But they were lovely. We had a great time eating nice food, playing games & just laughing together. We even went and played football and Frisbee in a nearby playing field which I think did me the world of good. I know that I need to exercise more and be more at one with nature, but I don't. Its hard work.
I put on a lot of weight once I developed anxiety at the age of 18. I had had depression for a number of years prior to this, but never anxiety. I put on 6 stone in a matter of a couple of years and I'm now 23 and it has yet to have disappeared. Apparently comfort eating is not as good of an idea as it seems at the time. It most certainly has knocked my confidence and self esteem. I'm nothing like the person I once was. But I'm hoping in time I can knock off the weight and it will be gone for good. I just have to be in a better mental state first.
Anyway, as I've said - A very successful, fun filled day. I love my friends and if you guys happen to read this, thank you. And for the matter, to anyone taking time out of their day to read this, I appreciate it and please let me know. I'd love to start a conversation.
Until tomorrow.
It started as it always does when I have a typically anxious day planned, being stuck in the bathroom. Yet another physical symptom I have the pleasure of experiencing. I won't say the exact words but I'm sure you can work it out. It is a truly upsetting & embarrassing way to start the day but once I was in the car and on the way, I seemed to calm down.
I especially struggle with meeting new people. I met some people today that I'd only met once before and never really spoken to at all. But they were lovely. We had a great time eating nice food, playing games & just laughing together. We even went and played football and Frisbee in a nearby playing field which I think did me the world of good. I know that I need to exercise more and be more at one with nature, but I don't. Its hard work.
I put on a lot of weight once I developed anxiety at the age of 18. I had had depression for a number of years prior to this, but never anxiety. I put on 6 stone in a matter of a couple of years and I'm now 23 and it has yet to have disappeared. Apparently comfort eating is not as good of an idea as it seems at the time. It most certainly has knocked my confidence and self esteem. I'm nothing like the person I once was. But I'm hoping in time I can knock off the weight and it will be gone for good. I just have to be in a better mental state first.
Anyway, as I've said - A very successful, fun filled day. I love my friends and if you guys happen to read this, thank you. And for the matter, to anyone taking time out of their day to read this, I appreciate it and please let me know. I'd love to start a conversation.
Until tomorrow.
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