Thunder Storm

2 things made my day today: My niece & a thunder storm.

I stayed home all day today and just had a very samey day, I did nothing out of the ordinary. But then my Dad called and my little niece was on the line. I love her so very much and I only get to see her a couple of times a year so she's so much more grown up every time. But it was our first proper phone call where we talked about her plans for the Summer holidays among other things. It really did make me happy hearing her voice. I'm hoping to start my driving lessons again once I have some benefits sorted out and then I'll be able to drive over to see her and my family rather than relying on anyone to take me. I feel like I'm missing out on her and my nephews life.

Another highlight tonight was the thunder storm. I was in absolute awe at how beautiful the sky was. It was completely lit up and it was so unbelievably gorgeous. Sometimes I despise this world and then on occasion something amazing like that will happen and it will brighten my spirits once more.

No plans for tomorrow except for...you guessed it. Another appointment. I'm due to start Level 3 CBT with a therapist very high up the ladder. I've had Level 1 before and it didn't help but apparently this is a lot more in depth and intense. Of course I'm worried again about walking up there as the appointment is at 1030am and its currently 330am and I'm nowhere near tired enough to sleep, but I can always nap again when I get home. I really hope the CBT makes a difference this time.

Oh, and one more thing. I managed to do a bunch of coursework tonight finally. I'm sure I will get this done so that's a relief. Its just such hard work, I wish it were easier.

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