An Old Friend

I have had the loveliest evening. I recently got into contact with a dear friend who I used to be very close to in school. She has the kindest heart and is always putting others first. I was lucky enough to have her company tonight for a few hours and we had a brilliant talk, talking about all the ups & downs in our lives. She is incredibly understanding about my mental health and wanted to know all about it and how I've been lately. Its made me realize that I need to make a lot more effort with my friends because I really do have some amazing ones. In being there for my mates, it may even help me. These last few days I've felt incredibly grateful for the life that I do have.

My life consists of many lows unfortunately but I've had a good week so far and really made the effort to get out there, talk to people & start living my life. I have many appointments next week but for now, I can enjoy all the plans that I have made and I have plans for tomorrow also.

Tonight I plan to play computer games with my friends and I'm really looking forward to it. My boyfriend loves it but I've always been into board games over computer games. But, now I'm starting to understand why he loves it so much. There is nothing better than sitting down in the evening, going on discord and being cheered on & supporting your buddies while playing a game. It reminds me of racing home from school after a hard day and going straight onto MSN to talk to all of your friends who you've only just left 20 minutes before.

Mental health conditions are difficult to say the least, but the good thing is that more often than not, they can be improved and can even go completely. One day I (or you if you're reading this and also struggle) might just be ok. There are bad days of which I have many and even on the good days there can be many struggles but for the most part at the moment, I feel positive and I feel hopeful for the future. As long as I keep putting the effort in.

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