Struggling
Hello, all.
Yesterday my partner went with his family into the city to play golf. I had a really tough night sleeping the night before so I decided to give it a miss as I had a busy evening planned. My afternoon plans got rescheduled to today but my friend still came over for our evening picnic. Unfortunately, we had to eat our picnic indoors as the weather was terrible but we still went for a nice, long walk and had a great chat. We've decided that next time we meet, we will have some drinks so that will be fun.
Today my partner had his universal credit meeting and I went and met up with my cousin. We went to hers and also to the pub to meet my uncle. I was considering writing a little about my family and I would like to but as it involves others, I thought it would be safer I didn't. All I will say is that I haven't seen my uncle since I was 9 years old so it was crazy to see him again. Being back in the town that I lived with my mum (who is now deceased) and seeing certain people really overwhelmed me and it was like tons of feelings and emotions came flooding in. I got home upset, angry and frustrated. I really wish I could say why but I cannot. It was just very hard. Luckily, my partner literally ran and hugged me the second I walked back in the door and I just felt at peace straight away. If anything, the trip today made me even more thankful for what I have now. And it was good to see some of my family again.
Tomorrow I had plans to go to a disco with my best friend but unfortunately due to today, I decided against it. My coursework needs to be done for tomorrow and I have done a singular question. I am really stressing out about it as it will definitely be late and I will have to message my tutor tomorrow. I also just want a 'me day' to reset and put myself back together again. I'll hopefully have some breaks between coursework and do just that. I will be going to my partners dads for dinner though and my bestie will be popping over to say hello which is amazing. She's amazing.
A shorter blog today but I am full of emotions this evening. I am struggling again but as always, I will get there in the end. I hope anyone reading this has a great week.
Yesterday my partner went with his family into the city to play golf. I had a really tough night sleeping the night before so I decided to give it a miss as I had a busy evening planned. My afternoon plans got rescheduled to today but my friend still came over for our evening picnic. Unfortunately, we had to eat our picnic indoors as the weather was terrible but we still went for a nice, long walk and had a great chat. We've decided that next time we meet, we will have some drinks so that will be fun.
Today my partner had his universal credit meeting and I went and met up with my cousin. We went to hers and also to the pub to meet my uncle. I was considering writing a little about my family and I would like to but as it involves others, I thought it would be safer I didn't. All I will say is that I haven't seen my uncle since I was 9 years old so it was crazy to see him again. Being back in the town that I lived with my mum (who is now deceased) and seeing certain people really overwhelmed me and it was like tons of feelings and emotions came flooding in. I got home upset, angry and frustrated. I really wish I could say why but I cannot. It was just very hard. Luckily, my partner literally ran and hugged me the second I walked back in the door and I just felt at peace straight away. If anything, the trip today made me even more thankful for what I have now. And it was good to see some of my family again.
Tomorrow I had plans to go to a disco with my best friend but unfortunately due to today, I decided against it. My coursework needs to be done for tomorrow and I have done a singular question. I am really stressing out about it as it will definitely be late and I will have to message my tutor tomorrow. I also just want a 'me day' to reset and put myself back together again. I'll hopefully have some breaks between coursework and do just that. I will be going to my partners dads for dinner though and my bestie will be popping over to say hello which is amazing. She's amazing.
A shorter blog today but I am full of emotions this evening. I am struggling again but as always, I will get there in the end. I hope anyone reading this has a great week.
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