Bad Day

Today was bad. I was very depressed. There was no particular reason behind it, I just was. Today was also the last day I had to complete my first assessment and there was a lot still to do. I'm very proud of myself because I got it done but it took a lot of work. My partner really put up with a lot from me today. He told me he would walk to spar and get me some ice cream if I finished it by 10pm. It was the motivation I needed and I felt like a child, but it worked and now its done. I haven't walked into town for a few days and I need to tomorrow to mail it off. I've noticed that if I get into the routine of something, I'm anxious but I can cope. When I stray from it, I start to struggle. But I'm learning  and everyone has bad days. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I haven't managed to do anymore tidying of the bedroom today but its only 1am, I'll be up for hours yet. Maybe I will later. I really want to get it sorted out but I'm exhausted. I get more tired from doing nothing than from doing actual activities.

My partner is also donating blood tomorrow for the first time and he's nervous. I feel awful because it reminds me of doctors so I won't be there with him. I will walk him there and meet him after to walk him home but I won't be staying. Its the best I can do right now and I really hope he understands. He's truly been incredible and I'm thankful for him every day.

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