CBT

Today I had my very first Level 3 CBT session after 3 hours sleep. I am more optimistic than the last time I tried due to not feeling forced into it. It is my decision this time. It is also a much higher level so hopefully that will make the difference. It went ok. I've been given some things to work on for next week. I've been shown a basic CBT model where you take a situation and then think about your behavior, emotions, thoughts and physical symptoms and try to find links and find ways to change your thoughts and behavior in order to change the rest. We went through an example today where the situation was me going to the doctors appointment 2 days before. I now have 3-4 more to complete over the next week before I see her again. I've been told to get a folder as its a lot of paperwork.

I also recieved a very long questionnaire in the post today which I need to fill out in order to give more details about my mental health to get universal credit. I filled out most of it today although it doesn't need to be sent off for another few weeks. I have a commitments appointment tomorrow which I have to attend in order to recieve my first payment hopefully next week. Everything is coming together slowly, it all takes time.

The game night was cancelled again for tomorrow but thats ok, I will come home after the appointment and do some more coursework. It simply means that I have more time to get it done. I am feeling a lot more positive lately as all of these appointments are forcing me to get up in the morning and get out of the house. I am struggling but I'm managing.

I'll get there and if anyone reads this, you will too. <3

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