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Not much to report on today.

I keep thinking back to yesterday and what a wonderful day it was. The worry & anxiety is always so much worse than the actual event. As cheesy as it sounds, I felt like I was living, not just existing. The majority of my time is spent sat up in bed on the laptop like I am doing right now. I go to bed very late (usually 4-6am) and get up in the afternoon. If I have plans and need to get up, I will usually get about 2 hours sleep and if not, I waste half my day. Its rubbish.

I plan to complete some coursework today. I am currently doing a Level 2 online course so that I am doing something productive with my time but if I'm honest, I'm even behind with that. 2 years ago I completed a foundation degree and now, a Level 2 course is becoming difficult. I've gone downhill, but I will keep trying.

Every day I am trying to do something productive, even if it just one thing. I will report back tomorrow if I manage to get any coursework done, I really hope I do.

If anyone reading this wants to let me know anything that they struggle with due to a mental health condition, please do. I have now put a 'follow' button which you can see by clicking on the little lines for the drop down menu on the top left. There is also a 'subscribe' button just above these posts which gives you an email notification every time I post (I think) so please if you're enjoying reading a bit about my day, go ahead and subscribe. I really do appreciate anyone taking the time to read these and I will be back tomorrow, whether anyone reads this or not! Bye-bye.

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