Sleeping Pattern
So in trying to sort out my sleeping pattern, I am completely losing track of what day and time it is. We managed to stay up all night and go to bed at 9am this morning and we got up at 6pm. Now, we will try to stay up all night again into tomorrow afternoon. My Doctors appointment is at 9am but I will still be awake and won't have to get up. Its very complicated. I feel worse after a good nights sleep than I do a shorter night. About 7 hours is good for me, any more than that and I start feeling dodgy.
I'm nervous about tomorrows appointment. I am definitely slowly improving my anxiety and I think thats down to the Sertraline and really pushing myself, but I still have a phobia of Doctors and I think I will for a long time. The reason for tomorrows appointment is to review the Sertraline again, talk about side effects, whether I think its working and possibly adjust the dose/change the medication if its not. I also want to talk to her about the IBS Symptoms that my therapist thinks I have and see what can be done. If blood tests are involved, I think I'll give it a pass. That's my final thing to work on once I'm in a better mental state because it will 100% be the hardest. I also want to talk to her about talking to a possible nutritionist or asking what help I can get in terms of my losing weight because I've tried so many times and I just can't do it alone, so I obviously need to do something different. I'll write back tomorrow how it goes, fingers crossed.
Me and my partner decided decided to go out for breakfast this morning to try and stay awake (despite getting takeaway the night before, as I said, I am not eating well) and as we were walking into town, his Mum passed us on her way back from her night shift so she came along too. It was nice to just spend a bit of time with her because she is the only person who works in our family. She supports three other adults as well as herself so she basically lives at work. And when she's not working, she's often at her partners, best mates or the pub. She has a busy life. We keep making plans to do an evening trip that we love doing but it keeps getting cancelled as she is too busy or tired but we will get there eventually. We're also still planning trips with my partners Dad too. I have lots of people to do things with but the problem is, everyone else has lives unlike me. They work, they have commitments and social lives. But anything is better than nothing.
Talk tomorrow.
I'm nervous about tomorrows appointment. I am definitely slowly improving my anxiety and I think thats down to the Sertraline and really pushing myself, but I still have a phobia of Doctors and I think I will for a long time. The reason for tomorrows appointment is to review the Sertraline again, talk about side effects, whether I think its working and possibly adjust the dose/change the medication if its not. I also want to talk to her about the IBS Symptoms that my therapist thinks I have and see what can be done. If blood tests are involved, I think I'll give it a pass. That's my final thing to work on once I'm in a better mental state because it will 100% be the hardest. I also want to talk to her about talking to a possible nutritionist or asking what help I can get in terms of my losing weight because I've tried so many times and I just can't do it alone, so I obviously need to do something different. I'll write back tomorrow how it goes, fingers crossed.
Me and my partner decided decided to go out for breakfast this morning to try and stay awake (despite getting takeaway the night before, as I said, I am not eating well) and as we were walking into town, his Mum passed us on her way back from her night shift so she came along too. It was nice to just spend a bit of time with her because she is the only person who works in our family. She supports three other adults as well as herself so she basically lives at work. And when she's not working, she's often at her partners, best mates or the pub. She has a busy life. We keep making plans to do an evening trip that we love doing but it keeps getting cancelled as she is too busy or tired but we will get there eventually. We're also still planning trips with my partners Dad too. I have lots of people to do things with but the problem is, everyone else has lives unlike me. They work, they have commitments and social lives. But anything is better than nothing.
Talk tomorrow.
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