Too good to be true

So, the good patch has ended.

I am writing this a lot earlier than I usually do but that's because I feel like shit and I'm hoping that writing about it will help me. Its currently 6pm and I got up roughly 2-3 hours ago. My doctors appointment on Monday is at 9am so me and my partner are going to try and sort out our sleeping pattern for then. I hope it works because this is making me miserable.

I'm depressed. Today is the day that I feel like I'm at square 1 again. I just don't want to do anything, I have zero motivation. We also have not gone to town because we woke up too late which means that I'm out of Sertraline for tomorrow. Our room is a complete mess. The kitchen is a mess even though I clean/tidy it every day before I go to bed. Its so frustrating and I just feel like its going to be one of those days.

Tomorrow for certain we are going to the folk festival. I should be looking forward to this like I have been for days but I'm just not. I'm even struggling to write this because I keep going into a daze. I feel like everything is pointless and I hate this.

I am really hoping that either tonight or tomorrow I will write again and be better. Being productive makes me feel better so maybe I'll continue with the housing application or tidy the bedroom or something later, but that's if I find the motivation. I'm really hoping that when I next write here again, I'll have better news. Because right now, I just feel like there's no point. To anything.

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