Progress

So, I made it to the Doctors. It was difficult because I'm going to be blunt - I got diarrhea. I haven't experienced it in a little while due to my anxiety not being so bad but being in a GP Practice is a whole other story. During the appointment, the Doctor made the decision that she was going to double my dose of Sertraline. Apparently smaller quantities can help anxiety but for some people, it takes more to notice a difference with the depression. I was also prescribed some sleeping tablets to try and regulate my sleeping pattern a little more. As I've said in a previous blog, my therapist wants to go right back to basics with me and basically re-teach me how to do simple tasks like eating, drinking, washing etc. It sounds easy but it is not. And its even harder when I am sleeping the way I am right now so hopefully, in taking another step backwards, I'll get there in the end. I also mentioned the IBS Symptoms and asked if I could get any extra help with regards to my eating habits and I was told about something called an eating disorder clinic. Unfortunately, they do not take people on who are currently going through CBT but she said that after I finish it (who knows how long that will be) if I am still struggling, that may help. And in the mean time, she gave me some advice such as having my own space in the fridge and freezer to store my food etc. And finally, I got another sick note to take to the job centre next week. I have now sent off my ESA Questionnaire so hopefully they will get back to me soon with an assessment date and if that goes well, I won't have to keep providing them anymore. I have another doctors appointment booked for 3 weeks time and its first thing in the morning so that I won't have to wait in the waiting room and I won't have time to get anxious. My doctor really is fantastic.

In other news, it is currently 12pm and I am still awake from yesterday. We plan to go food shopping in a couple of hours (I will buy the healthiest food I can find) and then I'll probably go to bed after that. I don't think I'll need a sleeping tablet today though because I am exhausted.

My partner has his sort of informal interview at 2pm so hopefully that goes well and then I would love to finish the housing application today but the way things are at the moment, it may have to wait. Its so important though so I just need to get my butt in gear and do it. I have no plans for tomorrow so maybe then.

On Thursday we will be doing something with his Dad which is fantastic, we are either going walking or if the weathers bad, we may do a bit of shopping. (Is it bad that I'm hoping the weathers bad?) I always feel a lot more positive after seeing my doctor so today is a good day. Fingers crossed it lasts a bit longer this time.

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