Productivity

Today has been extremely productive. I got up at 6am wide awake after a full nights sleep and it felt amazing. I went straight downstairs and made myself and my partner breakfast, put the dishes away and did a load of washing. Then I relaxed on the laptop for a little bit before having a shower and getting ready to go to CBT. My therapist thinks I'm making more progress on the anxiety side of things because I'm really pushing myself to go out more in public. We are really focusing on my sleep at the moment and trying to keep to a schedule and I have a plan. I have earplugs and an eye mask anyway but I struggle when my partner is staying up playing games so we've had a discussion and found a middle ground. I plan to try and go to bed 10-11pm most nights and get up 6-7am in the morning. So, when I am getting into bed, my partner will come off discord so he's not actually speaking outloud but stay on the computer most nights, going downstairs a few nights a week. We will see how that goes for the next week and I will report back to my therapist next Wednesday. She also is pleased that I'm making headway with my eating little and often. We've added a couple more things into the schedule such as having a quick walk with the dogs each evening around 7pm and I will also look into free things to do around my hometown tomorrow as I have little money but I still need things to look forward to. Finally, she has suggested a 2 and a half hour sleep workshop next month which she is happy to refer me to. I'm not sure about this but I will definitely have a think.

After CBT, we went to my partners dads for dinner and I really restricted myself with what I ate which is amazing. We also played a load of things on the wii which meant actually standing up and being a little more active, we had so much fun and we're seeing him tomorrow too, yay!

It is almost 10pm so I plan to head to bed soon and hopefully I'll be up bright and early for another productive day tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

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