Alcohol
I don't know the exact cause of death for my Mum but it was linked to alcohol. She was an alcoholic and I didn't know. It was of course the worst time of my life, I was only 9 years old. From that day I vouched to never touch a drop but that changed when I got into my teenage years. With peer pressure, school stresses and everything else life was throwing at me, a drunken night in a field by the bonfire or a cheeky house party was just the ticket.
I barely drink at all now. If I'm honest, the main reason is because I only socially drink and I don't often socialise. I am trying to change that though. I have been chatting to my cousin tonight. She is the only person on my Mums side of the family I still have contact with although we haven't spoken in a year. She's very busy and has a lot going on, as do I. Its easy to lose touch. But I'm hoping to see her soon. She wants to have a few ciders and I would love that. I adore a good thatchers haze. However, now I'm taking Sertraline and have been told I really need to limit alcohol. I haven't touched a drop this last month because I've been too afraid of the side effects of the mix but I think in the next few days I'll try. I'm also going to my partners uncles wedding near the end of the month and you can't not drink at a wedding, right?
Speaking of my partner, he's struggling. With us both having a hard time, arguments can occur. And they have been. We are amazing at supporting one another but that also has its limitations. We are around each other 24/7. We are in the same tiny bedroom day in, day out. Its going to be hard. But we're strong and its nothing we can't sort out. He had his job centre apt today, another is booked for next week. We'll get there in the end.
Other than that, a boring day. Washing, washing up, cleaning & playing with the dogs. We have 2 dogs. They are both needy in their own ways. One is an older boy who wants stroking and cuddles all the time. The other is a young girl who just wants to play. We're very lucky to have them.
Tomorrow we are at my partners dads for dinner. There is a Folk Festival in a local town nearby which I LOVE. I drag my partner there every year. Its a week long and its fantastic. There is also a tiny festival nearby which is very cheap but we've never been to so the aim is to go there on Saturday. I want to really make the most of it this year. I've already started planning and I will continue tomorrow.
I barely drink at all now. If I'm honest, the main reason is because I only socially drink and I don't often socialise. I am trying to change that though. I have been chatting to my cousin tonight. She is the only person on my Mums side of the family I still have contact with although we haven't spoken in a year. She's very busy and has a lot going on, as do I. Its easy to lose touch. But I'm hoping to see her soon. She wants to have a few ciders and I would love that. I adore a good thatchers haze. However, now I'm taking Sertraline and have been told I really need to limit alcohol. I haven't touched a drop this last month because I've been too afraid of the side effects of the mix but I think in the next few days I'll try. I'm also going to my partners uncles wedding near the end of the month and you can't not drink at a wedding, right?
Speaking of my partner, he's struggling. With us both having a hard time, arguments can occur. And they have been. We are amazing at supporting one another but that also has its limitations. We are around each other 24/7. We are in the same tiny bedroom day in, day out. Its going to be hard. But we're strong and its nothing we can't sort out. He had his job centre apt today, another is booked for next week. We'll get there in the end.
Other than that, a boring day. Washing, washing up, cleaning & playing with the dogs. We have 2 dogs. They are both needy in their own ways. One is an older boy who wants stroking and cuddles all the time. The other is a young girl who just wants to play. We're very lucky to have them.
Tomorrow we are at my partners dads for dinner. There is a Folk Festival in a local town nearby which I LOVE. I drag my partner there every year. Its a week long and its fantastic. There is also a tiny festival nearby which is very cheap but we've never been to so the aim is to go there on Saturday. I want to really make the most of it this year. I've already started planning and I will continue tomorrow.
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