Dinner

Before I get onto today, last night I had a can of cider. A singular can. I was very tipsy. But I think that as long as I have no more than 2-3 cans at the wedding in a few weeks, I should be ok. I was having a lovely time dancing to music on my own. I'm still so lucky to have no side effects so there were no symptoms to worsen. I'm lucky on that front.

Today we didn't go out for lunch, we went out for a very late dinner. We had an all day brunch and then I had fresh fruit (blueberries, strawberries and apple) and ice cream for dessert. I feel great now that I'm going out more with my partner, its having a good effect on our relationship as well because it means that we're not just stuck in the bedroom together.

My Student Finance has also been updated online so that's one less thing to worry about. Just the ESA forms to send off now.

Tomorrow I had plans to go to the folk festival with my best friend but neither of us have contacted each other and its now 0030am. I will make sure to get in contact with her tomorrow though as I have a surprise for her and maybe we can arrange something for another day.

My moods are very up and down at the moment. There are points during the day where I feel ontop of the world and other times where I can't get out of bed. I think that as long as I don't push myself too much, I'll get there. I hope.

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