Hospital Appointments | Friends
So on Monday night, I reached 100 followers on my Pinterest page. Due to only having one on this blog page (my best friend), I didn't honestly have much hope. But I did it. And it feels great. If anyone is interested in following me then the link is here: https://www.pinterest.co.uk/mycrazymental/
I have a mental health board of course as well as some boards of things that just make me happy and hopefully they'll make you happy too. Thanks in advance if you do check it out.
I can't quite remember if I have mentioned this before but I would love to start doing videos on my Youtube channel. I watch videos every day and they inspire me and I want to create them. You have to be very sure of yourself and strong minded though because of internet trolls and nasty people online and to be honest, I'm not sure I could handle it. But I'd love to try. If I manage to do this in the future I will be sure to link my Youtube channel here too.
But anyway, what have I been up to?
I had a pretty awful start to my Tuesday morning. A nightmare again the night before left me feeling very rough. Its very hard to explain but I'll try. I felt like I wasn't really here, like I was floating. I had no care in the world about one thing. I've been anxious to get my coursework done but at that point, it didn't bother me. It was upsetting my partner that I was feeling this way and it didn't bother me that he was sad. (Trust me, that wasn't easy to write.) And there is one thing that never fails to cheer me up, my dog. She bounded onto the bed, licked my face and started trying to wrestle and I barely noticed she was there. It was like I was on a cloud and I felt horribly depressed but completely numb at the same time. This lasted most of the day until my beautiful friend came round. She is an actual life saver and puts in so much effort with me. She drives to my house basically every week to check in and make sure I'm doing ok. She knows I struggle with using public transport and going out at all the majority of the time so she's happy to come here. She really listens to me and then just makes me smile. Me, her and my partner walked the dogs out in the back field and watching her chase them around really made me smile. We even went down by the river and threw sticks and got a bit wet. Then we played bowles in the garden and played a card game before she headed off home. It was a lovely evening and just proves that you don't have to do extravagant things to have a great time, you just need to be in good company. The second she left, I gave my partner my phone and said "take it away, I don't want any distractions" and went straight into the living room. That is where I stayed for the next 2 hours where I FINISHED my coursework. To say I was relieved was an understatement. After that, I called up the GP Practice to sort out my online account which I had been putting off for days, ordered my Sertraline and smiled. It was a horrific start to the day but by the end, I had done so much. And that wasn't down to me. It was down to my friend.
Yesterday was a day that I was dreading, I won't lie. I had to travel 2 hours to a city for my cousins hospital appointment. She wasn't aware that I had a phobia until we were walking in the entrance. Then she did. But I was there for her and I did it, that's what matters. I managed to talk to her about everything I wanted to on the drive there and there was a fantastic outcome to the consultation. It was something she had been fighting for for many years so she is over the moon that something will finally be done and I'm very happy for her. The traffic on the way back was horrendous due to road works and an accident but we finally got back about 6pm and then my partner went up to town to get us Chinese which was lovely. He went to a fete with his grandparents and ate breakfast out while I was busy so he had a nice morning too. He even sent off my coursework for me, I'm very lucky to have him.
The time is currently 6am and I am writing this in the pitch black as my partner is asleep. I was knackered after the travelling yesterday and made the very poor decision of going to bed at 8pm, only to wake up 5 hours later in the middle of the night wide awake and I still am now. I will hopefully get a nap in later day so I can last until tonight and it'll all be ok. I have zero plans today. Nothing. Nada. I'm so happy. No coursework, no nothing. I'm going to relax and I'm going to enjoy it as there should be a busy week up ahead.
Thanks again to anyone who reads this or follows me on Pinterest and I will update if I manage to branch out to any other social media platforms. All in good time. Enjoy your day. <3
I have a mental health board of course as well as some boards of things that just make me happy and hopefully they'll make you happy too. Thanks in advance if you do check it out.
I can't quite remember if I have mentioned this before but I would love to start doing videos on my Youtube channel. I watch videos every day and they inspire me and I want to create them. You have to be very sure of yourself and strong minded though because of internet trolls and nasty people online and to be honest, I'm not sure I could handle it. But I'd love to try. If I manage to do this in the future I will be sure to link my Youtube channel here too.
But anyway, what have I been up to?
I had a pretty awful start to my Tuesday morning. A nightmare again the night before left me feeling very rough. Its very hard to explain but I'll try. I felt like I wasn't really here, like I was floating. I had no care in the world about one thing. I've been anxious to get my coursework done but at that point, it didn't bother me. It was upsetting my partner that I was feeling this way and it didn't bother me that he was sad. (Trust me, that wasn't easy to write.) And there is one thing that never fails to cheer me up, my dog. She bounded onto the bed, licked my face and started trying to wrestle and I barely noticed she was there. It was like I was on a cloud and I felt horribly depressed but completely numb at the same time. This lasted most of the day until my beautiful friend came round. She is an actual life saver and puts in so much effort with me. She drives to my house basically every week to check in and make sure I'm doing ok. She knows I struggle with using public transport and going out at all the majority of the time so she's happy to come here. She really listens to me and then just makes me smile. Me, her and my partner walked the dogs out in the back field and watching her chase them around really made me smile. We even went down by the river and threw sticks and got a bit wet. Then we played bowles in the garden and played a card game before she headed off home. It was a lovely evening and just proves that you don't have to do extravagant things to have a great time, you just need to be in good company. The second she left, I gave my partner my phone and said "take it away, I don't want any distractions" and went straight into the living room. That is where I stayed for the next 2 hours where I FINISHED my coursework. To say I was relieved was an understatement. After that, I called up the GP Practice to sort out my online account which I had been putting off for days, ordered my Sertraline and smiled. It was a horrific start to the day but by the end, I had done so much. And that wasn't down to me. It was down to my friend.
Yesterday was a day that I was dreading, I won't lie. I had to travel 2 hours to a city for my cousins hospital appointment. She wasn't aware that I had a phobia until we were walking in the entrance. Then she did. But I was there for her and I did it, that's what matters. I managed to talk to her about everything I wanted to on the drive there and there was a fantastic outcome to the consultation. It was something she had been fighting for for many years so she is over the moon that something will finally be done and I'm very happy for her. The traffic on the way back was horrendous due to road works and an accident but we finally got back about 6pm and then my partner went up to town to get us Chinese which was lovely. He went to a fete with his grandparents and ate breakfast out while I was busy so he had a nice morning too. He even sent off my coursework for me, I'm very lucky to have him.
The time is currently 6am and I am writing this in the pitch black as my partner is asleep. I was knackered after the travelling yesterday and made the very poor decision of going to bed at 8pm, only to wake up 5 hours later in the middle of the night wide awake and I still am now. I will hopefully get a nap in later day so I can last until tonight and it'll all be ok. I have zero plans today. Nothing. Nada. I'm so happy. No coursework, no nothing. I'm going to relax and I'm going to enjoy it as there should be a busy week up ahead.
Thanks again to anyone who reads this or follows me on Pinterest and I will update if I manage to branch out to any other social media platforms. All in good time. Enjoy your day. <3
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