Bereavement
This blog is a day late because if I'm honest, I've been having a pretty hard time. Going back to the town I grew up in on Thursday really did a number on me and I've been overthinking a lot. I'm really missing my Mum at the moment and I really wish that she could be here to give me the strength I need to keep improving and get better. I miss her so much every day and last night I had a big old cry because I just couldn't get her out of my head. Its been 14 years since she passed away but if you have been through bereavement yourself, you may understand that its very hard to let go. My Mum brought me into this world and I only had 9 short years with her before she left. Its very hard to accept that I will never see her again or hear her voice but I know she is with my in spirit.
On Friday, my partner had an appointment and we then went to his dads for dinner. There is an incredible fish and chip shop where he lives so that's what we had. My bestie also came over for a couple of hours and did some quizzes with us which was fun. She told me that she has sent me a package and her and my partner have been scheming and I should get it in the coming weeks. It makes my entire month if I ever have the pleasure of getting a letter/gift from her and she is amazing at them. My partner also says I will love it so, excited is an understatement. I am really hoping to see her next week before she goes off on her next 6 month adventure so fingers crossed.
I also managed to get my urine tests sent off on Friday so hopefully I will get the results for those soon and I will have nothing to worry about...please.
I didn't get up to much yesterday other than going for a food shop and powering through some coursework. I sent my tutor another text to ask for some extra time as I am really struggling with my depression & motivation at the moment and she said that was fine so I'm incredibly relieved about that. I will work on some more this evening. I have planned out exactly how much I need to do over the next 6 days to get it sent off next Friday so hopefully I will stick to it and it will get done.
I also watched the first episode of this years Strictly Come Dancing last night. For me, the start of Strictly symbolizes the start of the end of the year...does that make sense? Probably not. I have sung and done drama performances in the past but never danced and I have always wanted to. At least through watching this, I can experience it on some level. Saturday is now my favourite day of the week.
As I have said, today I have made a coursework plan but I also had a chat with my Dad on the phone. We've been calling each other a lot lately and its been nice. I think I will likely see him the week after next as once this coursework is done, I can finish his painting and then finally get it to him. I can't wait to see what he thinks.
Tomorrow my cousin is popping over to see me and then its just more coursework. I think that is all it will be for the next few days really so I may take a break in writing, I don't want to sound repetitive. I wish everyone reading this a great week.
On Friday, my partner had an appointment and we then went to his dads for dinner. There is an incredible fish and chip shop where he lives so that's what we had. My bestie also came over for a couple of hours and did some quizzes with us which was fun. She told me that she has sent me a package and her and my partner have been scheming and I should get it in the coming weeks. It makes my entire month if I ever have the pleasure of getting a letter/gift from her and she is amazing at them. My partner also says I will love it so, excited is an understatement. I am really hoping to see her next week before she goes off on her next 6 month adventure so fingers crossed.
I also managed to get my urine tests sent off on Friday so hopefully I will get the results for those soon and I will have nothing to worry about...please.
I didn't get up to much yesterday other than going for a food shop and powering through some coursework. I sent my tutor another text to ask for some extra time as I am really struggling with my depression & motivation at the moment and she said that was fine so I'm incredibly relieved about that. I will work on some more this evening. I have planned out exactly how much I need to do over the next 6 days to get it sent off next Friday so hopefully I will stick to it and it will get done.
I also watched the first episode of this years Strictly Come Dancing last night. For me, the start of Strictly symbolizes the start of the end of the year...does that make sense? Probably not. I have sung and done drama performances in the past but never danced and I have always wanted to. At least through watching this, I can experience it on some level. Saturday is now my favourite day of the week.
As I have said, today I have made a coursework plan but I also had a chat with my Dad on the phone. We've been calling each other a lot lately and its been nice. I think I will likely see him the week after next as once this coursework is done, I can finish his painting and then finally get it to him. I can't wait to see what he thinks.
Tomorrow my cousin is popping over to see me and then its just more coursework. I think that is all it will be for the next few days really so I may take a break in writing, I don't want to sound repetitive. I wish everyone reading this a great week.
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